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This song is perfect for me since I just moved to Nebraska. 

Yes, I made the choice
For papa, I will stay
But I don't deserve to to lose my freedom in this way
You monster!
If you think that what you've done is right, well then
You're a fool!
Think again!

Is this home?
Is this where I should learn to be happy?
Never dreamed
That a home could be dark and cold
I was told
Ev'ry day in my childhood:
Even when you grow old
Home should be where the heart is
Never where words so true!
My heart's far, far away
Home is too

Is this home?
Is this what I must learn to believe in?
Try to find
Something good in this tragic place
Just in case
I should stay here forever
Held in this empty place
Oh, that won't be easy
I know the reason why
My heart's far, far away
Home's a lie

What I'd give to return
To the life that I knew lately
But I know I can't
Solve my problems going back

Is this home?
Am I here for a day or forever?
Shut away
From the world until who knows when
Oh, but then
As my life has been altered once
It can change again
Build higher walls around me
Change ev'ry lock and key
Nothing lasts, nothing holds
All of me
My heart's far, far away
Home and free! 

Now, not 100% of this applies to me....my parents aren't monsters or fools lol...but it really does relate in many ways. I moved here because of my dad's job. Belle had to stay with the Beast because of her father. "Yes, I made the choice. For papa, I will stay" I know that there is something good for me here...I just haven't found it yet. "Try to find Something good in this tragic place". I took everything and everyone in Elk River for granted. Huge mistake. "What I'd give to return,To the life that I knew lately." Even though this has been a huge change, I know that there is much more to come. "As my life has been altered once, It can change again".

I miss the old days. I miss Mr. Auen at RCA yelling at us because we always talked during class. I miss putting on the 40 minute "stay in school" "eduaction is good" cheesy mystery play with English I class. I miss being able to turn in English homework late because Mrs. Walton knew what it was like to have rehearsals and performances. I miss Hannah's "Praise JESUS!" "Don't tell me your momma don't feed you browwniess cause i knoww she does!" "TINA you fat lard!!" I miss being able to run up and down the halls singing broadway songs and everyone in school would just look at me and thing "oh it's KD and Sarah. Whatever..." I miss Anna and Kelsey and our gummy bear fights (with MY gummy bears....) in the locker area. I miss Mr. Jarvis' "MySchool Musical" for our spring choir concert. The best concert ever!!! I miss being able to tell Mr. Auen, Mrs. Walton or Dr. Shultz that you were having a bad day and you needed to go cry somewhere and they would let you skip class. I miss the fact that I could go to Mr. Auen crying my eyes out for some stupid reason, he would tell me how stupid the reason was, but then he would pray for me. I miss Brody. Now that is a shocker. I miss Brody Smith. Now you know I'm desperate! I miss how he would never shut up in History or English!!! :D I miss chapel prep and singing worship everyday. Dude chapel prep was so cool! At the beginning of the year, I always had Anna turn my mic down because I was totally not confident enough. I hate microphones. But by the end of the year, I was singing my heart out with the mic at the regular sound level. I still hate microphones but...ya know. Oh! And I miss taking down the chairs for youth group during chapel prep on Wednesdays! Funness.... I miss Pastor Mike's bible classes. I just miss Rivers Christian Academy. I like my new school but Rivers will always be my school. I will always be a Rivers girl. 

I miss having rehearsal at Parker elementry, even though I hated it there and wanted to be on the stage. I miss Eileen even though she was the worst type-cast director ever!!! But I miss doing her shows. Especially Aladdin and Rapunzel. I miss hanging out backstage with all my friends. I miss spewing diet pepsi through my nose all over backstage during rapunzel when mike cracked a joke. I miss having Heidi as a director for AGG. 

I miss friday nights at heidi's with dani, sarah, and occasionally other people. Brad's "little man who lives inside the camera." Buddy chasing me and sarah with a big pointy stick. Dani being the camel front when I was the camel butt! :) I miss going to the water park. Valleyfair. Heidi backing into sarah's car. Or us going to see the Happening. Which was hilarious. Even though its supposed to be a horror movie.....hmmmmm.....
I miss Derick's "awkward derick hugs". Me, him and Sarah going to see Momma Mia and going to target. Or "pokemon = poke gay man......you fail" LOL! I miss Mike's "you would!" "you little...piece of....candy!" "Rawr means I love you in dinosaur!" "143!!!" I miss bible class with Anna. I miss endless sleepovers with Sarah. "Manly gay man" "fall in a hole". Listening to bend and snap in the car.

And I miss everything else I forgot to mention...lol

Dude this was supposed to be a quick blog but i guess not, huh?
Well anyway. My point was, that Belle sings this song at the very beginning of the story. At the end she falls in love with the beast and gets a handsome prince. 

I might feel stuck, and lost right now, but I know that in the end I will not regret this!