Dance With God, He'll Let the Perfect Man Cut In

I'm done looking. I'm done trying.

I thought I had found the perfect guy but I was wrong...once again. 

I didn't have my heart broken but I was just disappointed. I've liked him for over a year. I knew he was changing. He has not been himself since the spring. So I am not surprised but deep down I always told myself that the old him was there somewhere and that he would come back someday. But now, I think he is to far gone. Nothing is impossible. Yeah, he could go back to his old self. But its going to take a miracle. A supernatural miracle. 

He supports abortion. I was not expecting that. The old him would never support the murder of unborn babies. That hurt me. Not because I liked him but because he was my friend and he knows where I stand. I was shocked. I couldn't believe my ears. I wanted to start yelling. To knock some sense in his head. 

Why?? I just don't get it.

I know I've said this before but I'm done looking for a guy. I promised God I wasn't going to date during high school but I was having second thoughts on that promise. Now I've decided to keep it. Its just not worth my time, emotions and thoughts. I have more important things to do. God will bring my prince to me someday. I don't doubt that. But I just need to be patient. 

I need to dance with God.

Good Time to Blog

So I haven't blogged in a while and I wanted to say something to clear things up a bit.

So lately, I have been mentioning to people that I'm am going up to Minnesota for the summer to visit friends and participate in the Elk River Community's Theatre production of The Secret Garden. I always get the same response. "Well, if you go up there for the summer, how are you going to meet anyone here? How are you gonna make friends?"

First of all, I've already met some amazing people here. And I'm sure I will only meet more. It's not like I hate Nebraska. I actually like it here. But I still have extremely close friends in Minnesota and its really hard being away from them. I just think its fair that I spend 2 months in Minnesota with them, when I get to spend 10 months here with my new friends. I'm not the kind of person who can just up and leave. When I make friends, especially close ones, we will be friends for a very long time, if not for a lifetime. 

Second of all, I'm sorry if my talking about Minnesota and sharing my memories gets annoying but you know what? I lived there my whole life. I still consider it my "home". I can't just stop talking about it and missing it. 

I've gotten closer to some of my friends in Minnesota because I moved. Which is an amazing thing! But it just makes it that much harder to be 400 miles away. 
But I'm glad I'm here. 
It's kind of like, if I could mush Minnesota and Nebraska together....everything would be perfect. 

So anyway, just wanted to clear things up. I don't want to escape up to Minnesota every chance I get because Nebraska is so horrible. No. I want to go to Minnesota so I can spend time with my friends there too. 

By the way. I will be in Minnesota for Thanksgiving and the week and a half after Christmas. I'll probably be staying with Sarah most of that time so text me and we can hang when I'm in town! 
<3 YA! 


Friends by Michael W. Smith

And friends are friends forever
If the lords the lord of them
And a friend will not say never
cause the welcome will not end
Though its hard to let you go
In the fathers hands we know
That a lifetimes not too long to live as friends.