I'm done looking. I'm done trying.
I thought I had found the perfect guy but I was wrong...once again.
I didn't have my heart broken but I was just disappointed. I've liked him for over a year. I knew he was changing. He has not been himself since the spring. So I am not surprised but deep down I always told myself that the old him was there somewhere and that he would come back someday. But now, I think he is to far gone. Nothing is impossible. Yeah, he could go back to his old self. But its going to take a miracle. A supernatural miracle.
He supports abortion. I was not expecting that. The old him would never support the murder of unborn babies. That hurt me. Not because I liked him but because he was my friend and he knows where I stand. I was shocked. I couldn't believe my ears. I wanted to start yelling. To knock some sense in his head.
Why?? I just don't get it.
I know I've said this before but I'm done looking for a guy. I promised God I wasn't going to date during high school but I was having second thoughts on that promise. Now I've decided to keep it. Its just not worth my time, emotions and thoughts. I have more important things to do. God will bring my prince to me someday. I don't doubt that. But I just need to be patient.
I need to dance with God.
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