I took a road down memory lane tonight, reading through my blog, and I came across something I wrote not too long ago. On May 26th 2010 I wrote a post called Becoming Me.
It almost brought tears to my eyes because I've seen how much I really have changed, matured. I talked about how I was moving away, no longer fully dependent on my parents. I have one month left in Fire in the Night and all I have been able to think about lately is how excited I am to go home. Why? I'm not exactly sure. I do have a fear of going home, not having faith in myself that I can keep up this walk with Jesus that I have found so intimately here. But I am excited to go home because I am worn out. I am completely and utterly worn out. I'm tired of taking care of myself, of living with 4 other girls, of doing things on my own. I am ready to go home and relax. Be in my own bed, see my friends, have fun and not have a care in the world.
But here, I really truly did become me. I walked into the next phase of God's life for me and I am overwhelmed at all He has done for me these last 5 months. I feel a lot more mature than I did before. But what makes me laugh is that I say that about every 6 months. But that's what life is. Maturing, growing, learning, laughing, crying, sighing, running, falling...becoming you.
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